Last night got blocked once again cause I wasn’t going to give money to someone I just met. Like seriously, I don’t do that. But it does hurt my confidence as a gay men. It happens so often; maybe I don’t deserve true love?

I know that isn’t the truth, but its hard not to believe that. I know love isn’t just about money and its just about about the heart and trust.

Has the focus of love changed so much that it has become so petty? I wish I could know and understand?

It’s 2023, and marriage is legal, so why the frustration. I’m feeling so bleak as i am writing this.

Maybe I have met the wrong people in life. I deserve true love.