Honestly, I hate it when people say I am not doing my best. Yes, I am taking life step by step (in my own way), and I do struggle with a lot on my plate. I wish I could secretly be Clark Kent and be superman yet am only one person; that’s me.

In life I have had personal setbacks, but one thing is true I have never given up. I am staring at the start of my 30s, and I want a change; I don’t want my 30’s to be like my 20’s. If it’s a change in my lifestyle to me with my goals, I really am unsure what to do. I wish being an adult came with an instruction manual, because I feel personally stuck inside; unsure what to do next.

Maybe I should focus on 3 main areas: physical, mental, and social growth. Maybe in my 30s I should focus on me and my own goals; or to find my partner for the future. Maybe I am not meant to do this life alone as a single man. Should I redefine my personal definition of love, because I have been single for too long; and it hurts me knowing maybe I am meant to be alone within this universe.

I wish I had the confidence to grow and be different in my 30s. Kind of have a refresh in my life and start becoming anything I would want to be. But first I must love myself as I am, even as fabulous as I may seem (and maybe look), we are all striving to grow and be better than before!

Not to be a ghost of my formal self; but look to the future as I am constantly evolving!